Serving in a ministry should not determine you self worth. Now that your brow has wrinkled a bit, some explanation. If you have ever served in a ministry you have felt this at one time or another, or maybe you’ve witnessed it. You’ve poured your heart and soul into this thing, sometimes for years. Then for some reason it is not going well or it comes to an end. It happened to me…a couple of times. I’ll share one example.
In the aftermath of 9/11 the Father called me to lead a study that took real world events and put them in context of scripture. The Pastor and I prayed about it and agreed it was something to move forward with. So we advertised and I got the resources, study handouts ect ready for the mass influx of attendees. The day came and guess what? One person showed up!! I mean really? So I went ahead and did my thing thinking this was just the first class. Well nope, weeks turned into months and still just this one person showed up. We discussed the study and everything, man that one person sure was faithful to show every week! So I started to doubt I was doing the right thing. Must be something about the way I was doing it, maybe my accent, maybe I suck at teaching, maybe I’m boring? If I was any good more people would be coming to the class. I was in the dumps emotionally. I felt I was not of much use cause the ministry was not going as planned. After about 9 months of this I decided to just tell the one person in the next class we were done. Thanks for coming all these months, see ya in church on Sunday. Then something happened I cannot forget. The L-rd intervened and taught me a lesson. He didn’t call into a ministry so I could feel good about myself. He called me to be obedient to the call, no matter what. I needed to be obedient during the hard times as well as the good. He showed me the thing that should give me worth is being a child of G-d, a follower of Messiah, a doer of the Word. The Father’s message was clear…..serve till I tell you to do something else. Well I put on my big boy pants, got my thoughts adjusted and decided to tough it out. Then about 4 months later the Pastor ask me to do the study during his teaching time on Sunday nights……guess what? Attendance grew to about 40 or so and it went on for almost another year! Then the season of this teaching passed so something else could start and I moved on.
I said all that to say this;
Don’t let your serving determine your self worth. God knew you before you were born and laid out all your days……you are special!
Now some things just need to get done in a congregation. The lights need to be turned on, things need to made ready for the people. We can all do these things we just have to want to do them and have the skill to make it happen. That’s ok. They just have to get done. These are not necessarily the types of ministry I’m talking about here but the same idea about serving applies in general.
Some ministries do need people that are called, by G-d, and equipped to make them happen. If your in one of these and things are not going as it seems they should, a couple of thoughts. A congregation gets to decide what ministries it offers, fair or not that’s the way it works. Is G-d calling you to do a certain thing?
I serve on staff for the congregation and also under the anointing and call of the Father. One of a few things can happen. The church decides to move in a new direction or G-d changes my ministry / anointing. If the church decides to move in a new direction and I’m anointed to do what I do, then I’ll have to adapt or find a new congregation to serve in. If G-d removes the anointing or says it’s time to move on He’ll open another door when the time is right.
Blessings Mark
